This week’s film kicks off in media res, Pandora already bent over Stephen’s knee, kicking and squirming as he lays into her with his belt. It’s a classic spanking scene, perfectly pitched for any fan of the genre.
What I think really makes this one stand out is the scolding, though. Stephen Lewis is an old hand at this - he knows exactly what to say to a misbehaving submissive to leave them suitably shamed and chastised. Maybe this is just my own bias coming through (god knows I love a chatty dominant!), but it’s so often the dialogue that makes a real-life spanking scene special, right? Stephen has all that down pat, and it makes for a highly enjoyable film.
We’ve got some behind-the-scenes footage for you this week too, which I always enjoy watching - I’ve never actually been on set with Pandora, and it’s fun to get a glimpse behind the curtain. I’d never really thought about it till I watched this clip, but some of the hottest angles and sexiest shots require a bit of up close contortion from the cameraperson!
Remember our recent Guest Director release The Credit Card? If you need your memory jogged a little, it’s the one where the stunning Sha Luciana gets her incredibly spankable behind roundly warmed by her husband Pharaoh, following his discovery of her latest credit card bill. I’m sure you remember it anyway, of course; a spanking like that is hard to forget!
Anyway, when that came out we promised you a little something more to follow - and we always keep our promises. This weekend we’re excited to announce the release of some exclusive behind-the-scenes footage that gives us all a chance to get to know Pharaoh and Sha a little better - and see some more of her perfect bottom, too.
This film is amongst the most intimate and personal footage we’ve released here on Dreams of Spanking. The beauty of Pharaoh and Sha’s content is that everything you see is real; most of their films show punishments Sha would have received whether the camera was rolling or not.
There’s a casual, conversational tone to the whole clip, and they really make you feel like you’re hanging out with them listening to them chat. They’ve also got a special surprise in store at the end - what do you reckon Sha’s getting punished for this time?
Watching Tight Trouser Tease got me thinking about bodies; my body, others’ bodies and just how much we are up against in terms of understanding and accepting our bodies. In this film, Pandora talks about the changes to their body during pregnancy and how delightful it has been. It led me to a few questions, the most challenging of which was: If loving our bodies is good for us, as we can hopefully all agree it is, why then do we appear to be in an almost global crisis when it comes to physical self esteem?
There is a lot of talk about bodies in media and culture right now, from censorship to sex work, to reproductive rights, gender autonomy, body image, and let’s not forget the age old debate of Fit v. Fat. Our bodies are constantly under scrutiny. One would think that with the world at large so up in arms about who can do what with their body, and the unreasonable “norms” we are expected to conform to, that we’d be kinder to ourselves in light of all that negativity. Sadly, these wounds run deep for so many, and getting out from under that systemic microscope can be a significant challenge.
Like many, I have personally been on a crusade to heal and improve my self-image of my body. I certainly don’t have all the answers, but I have definitely picked up some jewels of wisdom along the way. Everyone’s path is different in this regard, but here are some reminders and strategies that I have found useful in navigating “body positivity”:
Habits are hard to change, but not impossible
Our words and actions are more powerful than we sometimes realize. One way in which this seems almost universally true is self-talk. If every morning while you brush your teeth you stare into the mirror and tell yourself how good, miraculous and worthy your body is, and how proud you are of all it accomplishes, you will inevitably be able to better embrace and accept your body than if you scowl and criticize and bully yourself.
But here’s the rub: that’s so much easier to say than do. It takes awareness, commitment and dedication to change those inner monologues. Be gentle with yourself. If you catch yourself being harsh, ask yourself if you’d say those same things to a friend or family member? You deserve the same respect you give others.
My body does an awful lot for me, and I bet yours does too. Sure, mine doesn’t rock climb or run very fast, it’s soft where it’s told it should be firm, but it’s mine, and I’m grateful for it. Health, disability, past trauma and how you were raised to feel about your body can all contribute to not feeling very grateful for the body you have.
An interesting and eye opening exercise is to literally take stock of your body and find all the reasons that it’s so great. Start at your feet and work your way up, finding positive things to say about as many parts of yourself as you can without solely acknowledging how things look. I don’t love the aesthetics of my legs, for example, but telling myself that they are too short and thick to be sexy won’t help me feel good about myself. Noting that they are strong and they take me places and allow me to do the things I love to do, makes me an ally of my legs. Suddenly we are on the same team - and I have bestowed value on them that is not just about how they look.
Bodies are ever-changing … and that’s a good thing!
If you stopped reading this article and looked at your body right now, you would find that much like all other bodies, regardless of size, fitness, wellness, etc, your body is constantly in flux. Our bodies are not static. They are ever changing, and forever giving us new and important information. It is easy to slip into thinking that the iteration of our body that we used to have when we were younger, or the body we could have if only we stopped eating dessert, are superior to the bodies we have right now. But if you wish that you could love your body more, you have to start loving it now. That sounds reductive and oversimplified, but it’s true.
How? Meet yourself, and your body, where you are.
If you want to make changes, do. Or not! But I can tell you this: it’s easier to change your body if you already love it before you ask it to change.
Take your body where it is appreciated
Working on your own body acceptance and celebration is a worthy effort, and something that can be very inspiring to those around you. But if you are met with hostility or resistance from others, or you’re simply tired of being caught up in someone else’s thoughts and feelings and projections about their own body, you owe it to yourself to manage your exposure to those sources of negativity. In short, don’t let anyone derail your efforts or convince you that you are any less worthy than you believe you are. If someone in your life is unable to be respectful and keep their negative comments to themselves, take your body where it is appreciated.
Being able-bodied, fit, thin, beautiful, etc. is not your cost of admission to a fulfilling life. You don’t owe anyone anything in terms of how your body looks or works. The more you believe that the less they can impact you with their own miserable agenda.
For most of us, it is a long and circuitous road to body acceptance and body love - but every journey begins with a single step, and only you can know what it is that you need to navigate in a world gone mad with impossible beauty standards and endless sources of shame. I’ll leave you with a quote from the groundbreaking 90’s African American girl group Salt-N-Pepa’s hit, I Am the Body Beautiful, that I have always found inspiring:
“There ain't enough words to express how I feel
I'm body beautiful, true, that's for real
Am who I am and that's all I can be
Open up your mind so your eyes can see”
After a quiet year, I have some big news.
I’m stretching my creative wings again with some new queer porn collaborations. Last weekend I filmed a scene with Courtney Trouble and Chelsea Poe with me and Chelsea performing together, which was a dream come true. I have a massive porn crush on Chelsea and we had so much fun. Our scene was (of course!) very kinky and involved butch/femme dynamics, spanking, flogging, makeouts, Chelsea making me squirt everywhere with her fingers and tongue (she kept asking me to cum on her tits, which I’ve never done before - it was very horny) and me sitting on and fucking her face with my cock until we were both drenched in jizz. Chelsea had to hop in the shower afterwards to rinse my cum out of her hair. It was so great to connect with her and I hope we get to work together again.
Courtney, who was our videographer, was so great to work with and made everything super easy. They were warm, sweet and welcoming, delightfully enthusiastic about my gender expression, and helped me get over my nerves. I stopped getting regular pre-shoot anxiety ages ago, but it was a bit scary shooting with two porn icons whom I’ve admired from afar for years. I’m so so glad to have worked with them both and can’t wait to release the finished scene, which is a collaboration and will be distributed through QueerPorn.tv, Dreams of Spanking and other channels.
It's coming. And so are we...
Since Dreams of Spanking launched, I've been impatient to edit and release The Victorian Brothel. I chose the image of me over Tom's knee, wearing bloomers and a corset, as the homepage header image back when I designed the site in the summer of 2011. I always intended to create a rotating gallery of images on that header, showing a wider variety of scenes, but somehow I never found time.
I was incredibly proud of this film when we shot it. This was my second ever shoot as producer/director, a day with Zille Defeu, her husband Duncan, our friend Jay, Tom and me. The first Dreams of Spanking shoot had just been me, Jay and Tom. Those early shoots were a steep learning curve for me.
Until The Victorian Brothel, every scene was a crash course in new aspects of filming that I had to work out from scratch. There was a lot of stopping and starting. Trying to juggle the mental demands of directing with the physical and emotional challenges of bottoming on camera, I found it hard to avoid getting stressed. But The Victorian Brothel was our final scene of the day, and it was the first scene I'd produced that felt like it went well at the time. With Duncan, Zille and Jay behind the camera, Tom and I got into character and the roleplay flowed. It felt as natural as the roleplay scenes we played in private. Trusting our friends to capture our live improvisation, I was able to immerse myself in the scenario, get fully into character, and surrender to the beating without having to balance that headspace with other, more technical concerns. As a result I was able to take a much harder spanking, paddling and caning than I usually can while performing/directing, and I was really happy about it.
That was over seven years ago, in early December 2009. The reason I didn't edit this film before the site launched, along with the other two scenes we shot that day - Caned in Jodhpurs and Liberated Ladies of the Jazz Age - is simple. The Victorian Brothel was originally written as part of a series of films entitled The Adventures of Molly Brown. I'd written several episodes of it; this was the fourth chapter in the story. I hadn't had a chance yet to shoot episodes one to three, but the shoot with Zille and Tom was a perfect opportunity to shoot the episode in which my character meets his for the first time. I very much intended to shoot the others at some point, however; and I wanted to wait and release them in story order.
Sadly, I never got a chance to film the backstory. Episodes one, two and three fell by the wayside. And when I realised that the age verification policy in the Digital Economy Bill was going to put a cut-off point on my ability to keep the site alive in its current form, I finally accepted that I wasn't going to get the chance to shoot them any time soon. Meanwhile, I'm trying to release as much of the content I care about while the site is still legal in the UK.
So Molly Brown's story starts here: with her first appointment with a new customer in Mrs Slater's brothel. An urchin who grew up in the streets and the workhouse, Molly was sent out to work for various undesirable trades, but somehow always found herself sent back to face the the steely glare - and the hard leather strap - of the beadle. When Mrs Slater turned up to see if he had any new girls for her, he packed her off to the brothel - and Molly's life entered a new chapter.
Scrubbed to within an inch of her life, Molly began her transformation into a girl Mrs Slater's customers might find appealing. She earned her share of licks from the madame, too; but it was nothing compared to the beadle's strong right arm. When Mrs Slater saw how well Molly took her punishment, she thought to send her to one of her more eccentric clients, a gent with a predilection for administering corporal punishment to the plump bare bottoms of comely wenches. Molly lacked the elegance and accomplishment of other girls, but she was resilient and quick-witted, and Mrs Slater saw the potential to train her up to please her more unusual clientele.
Molly took well to Mrs Slater's training, and was finally declared ready to meet her first customer. But although Molly is no stranger to taking a beating, she still is not particularly inclined to behave submissively. Sparks fly between her and the gent as he tries to bend her to his will, and her quick tongue and stubborn nature get her into more trouble than she'd bargained for.
So that's Molly's backstory. You never know, it's not impossible I might be able to shoot the previous episodes sometime in the future - although perhaps I'll look too different by the time the stars align, and I have affordable access to the venues and cast I need. In the meantime I think this scene stands well enough on its own. Although I can tell you now that the next chapter has also been shot, and will be released in the coming weeks, starring myself, Tom, and a new character played by Leia Ann Woods...
Coming back to this film to edit it, seven years after it was filmed, was a weird experience. Tom and I split up three years ago, and it was very strange to watch us on camera. I almost felt like I was watching someone else; and yet in other ways seeing us together all those years ago felt very real, and very personal.
I remember writing this scene for us to play. Although Tom plays a very overbearing, bullying character, and to the uninitiated perhaps this scene might be edgy enough to seem non-consensual, I can tell you for certain that this scenario was my fantasy, and performing it was an authentic act of self-expression. But it was fascinating and somewhat dissonant to watch this recording, a piece of my own personal history, and reflect on how much has changed since then.
There are some aspects of this film that I would definitely do differently nowadays. For instance, the way that Tom's patriarchal character throws around the word "whore" makes me wince, now, as an advocate of sex workers' rights who is fighting against stigma and whorephobia. These days I would seriously consider before I took on the role of a historical sex worker, but back then I didn't think twice.
Editing this, I had the opportunity to reflect on how far Dreams of Spanking has come - not only politically, but technically. The Victorian Brothel was shot before I knew to record audio separately from the cameras, or to use face lights. It was a frustrating edit in some ways, as I struggled to salvage a legible soundtrack from two cameras that both had audio isses - one picking up a lot of wind noise (from where I have no idea, given we were indoors), the other plagued by mechanical clicks and whirrs from the operation of the camera. But I feel like I've managed to massage it into a shape that communicates my vision, hopefully without too many technical distractions. I hope you'll forgive any that remain.
For me, the power of this film comes from the interaction between the characters. It's a hard corporal punishment scene, both physically and emotionally - the intensity brings me/Molly to tears towards the end. But not only is the spanking itself severe, the atmosphere of the scene is rife with tension. The scenario unfolds as a battle of wills between a cruel gentleman with particular tastes, and a spirited wench who doesn't know when to keep her mouth shut. I certainly took more strokes, and harder, than if Molly Brown had been submissive than rebellious. But I loved it.
Life has moved on since Tom and I filmed this scene. We are no longer together, and there have been many changes for both me and Dreams of Spanking. But this film holds a special place in my heart. It shows what Tom and I did best - hard, accurate spanking that pushes me to my limits, quick-witted dialogue, sparks flying between two strong characters, and Tom's trademark brand of elegant, articulate dominance.
When I filmed this scene, it seemed to encapsulate everything I wanted to achieve with Dreams of Spanking: immersive roleplay between real life partners, lush costumes and locations, and imaginative historical settings with a quirky sense of humour and a rich attention to detail. That was why I chose a still from this scene as our banner image - and why, although much has changed since then, I'm still very pleased to share it with the world.
Despite containing nakedness, over the knee spanking and hard caning, there is something almost innocent in these images. Maybe it's the Victorian setting, or Pandora's white flouncy underskirt. Whatever it is, it really gives this scene a romantic air that I love. It's a sort of nostalgia for a time I only know from books and films.
The Victorian Brothel starring Pandora Blake and Thomas Cameron is a gorgeous sepia photoset that manages to perfectly capture a sort of mentor/protegee experience. I think the slightly cheeky but nervous smile on Pandora's face as she looks up at him is one of the things that make me think of the asymmetrical power dynamic between a strict teacher and student who is eager to impress.
There is an innocence in the photos of Pandora as a Victorian wench getting ready to meet (and please) her new client. I love the image of her kneeling at his feet; the way her hands are tucked under her bottom, and she is looking at the floor but still turned towards him, and the smile on his face as he sits relaxed. It holds possibility; his hand resting on his knee looks like all he has to do is lift a finger and he will be touching her breast. It’s powerful; charged with sensual tension but not overtly erotic…and despite not being submissive, I find I can’t decide if I want to be on the floor or in the chair.
The sequence of photographs where Pandora is showing herself off for Thomas is fascinating. There is an air of confidence but also uncertainty. It conveys the feeling that she is proud of her body but not quite sure if the person she is showing off for approves. Even when she is laid over his knee she seems confused by his lack of apparent response to her charms - which makes her reaction to the first spank so delightful...
I love the careful way Thomas explores her; lifting her skirt, parting her white bloomers, stroking her bum, and skimming past her more delicate area before teasing with a finger, as if he is testing her readiness. The way he lines up the paddle while Pandora tenses, her face crunched as she prepares for the first impact of leather.
I think my favourite image in this set is the one of the cane impacting on Pandora’s bare bottom. The pose, composition, the way the heels lift her bare bottom, and the stocking tops frame the ‘impact zone’. I love how the cane is pressing into her flesh, bending slightly with the force of the stroke. Plus, it is a very lovely bottom, especially with that pattern of bruised stripes across it. It’s an image I have gone back to more than once.
Finally her punishment is over, and Thomas gathers Pandora on his knee. There is something really sexy about the way Pandora bites her lip as Thomas bites her nipple. The way he has her arms pinned behind her back just adds to the feeling. This is a really hot image, that gave me all the right kind of shivers. The film that goes with this photoset has just been released, and I can't wait to watch it because I think it will be hot hot hot.
The last image in the set reminds me of those collectable cards you used to get in cigarette packet, of the sexy ladies in their underwear. It has that air about it, Victorian pin-up perfection.
This is an elegant, evocative photoset with so many beautiful images in it. Which is your favourite?
Sometimes a good, long over the knee spanking is all you need to melt. To feel the stresses of the world around you slip away as you surrender yourself to sensation. And with this film, a no-frills, unscripted erotic hand spanking, you will feel yourself melting along with Pandora. I know I did.
Wearing beautifully elegant black lace knickers and hold-up stockings, it doesn’t take long for Pandora to be turned into a puddle of bliss. John Phillips’s firm hand takes her through a long, slow warm-up, ramping up the erotic tension and building a rhythm that has Pandora saying “yes please”.
Confession: that’s pretty much exactly what I was saying too.
There are so many things I like about this scene. Its rawness. The light (because I am both a sucker for beautiful light and also a massive nerd). The moments where the camera closes on Pandora’s face as she flashes us a grin of approval. The build-up to a climax of twelve hard spanks... plus a couple extra for good measure.
Don’t get me wrong; I love getting lost in a good story. I like frills. I like well-thought out scenarios and dramatic build up. But sometimes simple is the most effective way to my heart. And this scene is so gorgeous because of its simplicity. Just Pandora, receiving a delectable, shiver-inducing over the knee spanking.
Sometimes that’s all you need to melt. Even when you’re just watching.
If you've been following this site for a while, you might have noticed something missing. Although the archive is crammed with hot spanking videos, and many of them show me playing with real life partners and lovers (particularly my top of ten years, Thomas), one person has been conspicuous by their absence: my long-term boyfriend and dominant, D.
D and I have created plenty of photosets together, but he's never topped me on video. As a dominant he is relaxed and spontaneous, and the idea of following a script, playing a character and pretending to scold and punish me isn't really him. He's an exhibitionist, but unlike me, he doesn't enjoy performing.
It's a point of principle for me as a director not to pressure anyone to do anything they aren't comfortable with. So we've always stayed within D's comfort zone, shooting occasional photosets that didn't make him feel like he was acting. Until now.
Now, there is a spanking video starring me and D on Dreams of Spanking - and with a 50 stroke cold caning, he certainly knows how to make an entrance.
When I set up my fundraising campaign to raise money to help non-profit organisation Backlash challenge the new UK porn laws, D was behind me every step of the way. Our shared political values are one of the fundamentals of our relationship, and we've both always been active in politics in different ways. When I told him I needed someone to beat me on video to fight internet censorship, he was happy to step forward - no acting necessary.
This was the longest, hardest caning D has ever given me. Dishing out fifty hard cane strokes on film purely for the sake of it was never going to be his cup of tea - but as an act of political protest? Sure.
Speaking of cups of tea, one of my favourite moments in this free caning film is jjust before stroke sixteen, when I insist on pausing the caning so I can finish my half-drunk cuppa. It turns out that taking fifteen hard cane strokes on the bare bottom is the perfect way to pass the time while you wait for your tea to cool to the ideal drinking temperature. What better pick-me-up to boost my spirits for the remaining strokes? This is a protest film about the new UK porn laws, after all - and I don't think there's any combination more British than tea and caning.
I love the playfulness and affection between D and me in this video. We were both being ourselves, no roleplay, no characters, and watching it back the dynamic feels very true to our relationship. He doesn't usually watch my spanking videos, but he watched this one and chuckled his way through it at our banter and in-jokes. "It feels very us," he told me. "We're adorkable."
If you've ever looked at my steamy photosets with D and felt curious about our relationship, and wanted to meet the man behind the pictures, watch this film. It's about as honest a portrait of the two of us as you can get.
Apart from the caning, of course. That bit's completely out of character.
One of the core themes of Dreams of Spanking is the difference between fantasy and reality. Especially when fantasising about a non-consensual punishment, it's importance to make it clear that fantasy is just make-believe, and that in real life, we enjoy consensual spanking for fun and mutual satisfaction.
This year I've had fun sharing some more candid moments from my private life. Pushing out a new film every week, I sometimes feel that I have to compromise on quality. When I'm producing fantasy fiction, I want the production values to be as high as possible within my limited budget. I've decided to prioritise quality over quantity. Instead of trying to release a new ambitious spanking storyline every week, I want to take the time to make my professional costume productions as good as possible, and space them out with simpler videos that show real life amateur spanking. After all, both sides of spanking are equally precious to me - the elaborate invented scenarios that excite my mind, and the simpler play with others that makes my body feel good. Fiction and real life; fantasy and reality.
Our latest video is an example of this. It's an over the knee hand spanking, pure and simple. No high concept, no characters, no roleplay - just me, offering up my bare bottom and breathing into the pain.
Perhaps you'll enjoy the moment where I breathlessly suggest that he spank my thighs - and then writhe, wriggle and cry mercy as the stinging pain is sharper than I expect. Maybe it's the classic elegance of my black thigh-high stockings and suspenders that will do it for you, or the firm rubs and squeezes my spanker gives me to soothe the sting. Or perhaps you'll enjoy watching the colour deepen and intensify on my bottom and the tops of my legs until they glow hot red.
I'm all for complicated plotlines, but sometimes it's nice to simplify and go back to basics. A firm hand, a comfortable lap, a hard over the knee spanking - and the serenity that follows.
What do you get when you put the Dreams of Spanking team in a house with a giant hot tub? Wet spankings! In this week's film David Weston and Talia Lane are let loose on a mountain of bubbles, for a playful, performer-driven switch spanking scene.
I'm not sure what there's more of in this update – kisses or bottom smacks. Talia and David have such a giggly, loved-up vibe that watching them playing together feels like a realy intimate moment. They're sharing their delight at being able to explore each other's bodies in a luxurious bubble bath, and you almost feel like the camera isn't there.
I know there are plenty of people who love homemade porn – what's often known as 'amateur porn' although it's often anything but. I can totally see the appeal of this, because while sometimes it's a shorthand for shaky camera work, most frequently it is a signifier of chemistry. Homemade porn is usually made by people who have serious desire for each other and who want to capture that on film.
In this scene, David and Talia's natural playfulness shines through, and it's a glimpse into how this real life couple are in... well... real life. It's something they brought spectacularly to their first video together – in which they played the naughty schoolboy and schoolgirl punished by strict Ms Blake – and this scene takes it to the next level.
I think my favourite bit in 'Bubble Butts' is David's gleeful cry of “more spanks please!” - it sums up perfectly the joy he takes in a good bare bottom spanking, and his excitement at playing on camera with his girlfriend. Perhaps the only thing that tops it is Talia's demand for more kisses.
This film came out in time for Valentine's Day last weekend, so it's a perfect excuse for glorious, unashamed cuteness: and I know of very few porn couples who embody sexy spanking cuteness quite like David and Talia.
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